Watching you grow...

Well, I could say that I am really already a mother... Whenever I have idle time as I watch my baby sleep, I get emotional, I get to think of poems, and letters that my baby would surely be able to read someday. I was teary-eyed, no I wasn't, in fact, I was already crying when I composed this. I was crying because I was so grateful for the gift of life at my sight, for the opportunity to be able to take care of my son 24/7, and for the fear that this little boy I used to cradle at night might soon grow-up and I may not have this same chance to watch him as he sleep, to kiss him goodnight, and hug him so tight...

"It's heartmelting to see you who were once a cell inside my womb grow up right before my eyes. I would not want to wink so I would not miss every single moment of your life. From head control to rolling over to crawling to sitting to standing to walking. From reaching to grasping to mouthing to teething. From smiling to laughing and giggling. From cooing to gurgling to talking. I feel so proud as a mother as I watch you reach each milestone. I'm so glad I was able to witness your first smile, first laugh, first word, first grip, first step, and first fall. Those were the moments that cannot be captured by the lens of the camera.

Time flies so fast, soon you will grow up very very fast, but there's one thing I always pray - that God's protection be with you every minute and every second of the day. Son, no matter how grown man you may be, I will always remember the times when I used to hold you in my arms, when you used to sleep on my chest, when you tightly hug me in the dark, when you smile at me as you wake up from an afternoon nap, when you cry so loud as you see me walk away, and the way you say 'mama' whenever you want me to carry you. I will surely miss those moments, and I thank God I was able to experience those as not every mother was privileged to.

I love you little boy! I will always do! I will take all the stones thrown at you and all the arrows bound to hit you. But I know at times you have to get hurt, you have to feel the pain so you would be strong and wise...so you would know what life is, and you would understand who God is. I just want you to know that mommy will always be here for you, mommy will always love you! I love you so much my sweet little angel! :)"

A love letter from a mother...

Dear son,

Baby, I love you so much! I'm sorry because I can't promise not to spoil you, I can't promise not to freak out when you get hurt, I can't promise not to panic when you're sick, I can't promise not to fight back when you're bullied, and I can't promise not to cry when you cry. I am your mother, I carried you inside my womb, I heard your first coos and witnessed your first giggles and laughs. Now, I can't wait to see you roll-over and crawl. And when you have finally learned how to walk, I promise to walk with you hand in hand till my hair turns gray.

Lots of sacrifices have been done, lots of prayers were uttered, lots of tears were consumed just to have you in my life. I know I can't be the perfect mom but I'll do everything just to be the best for you so when you grow up you'll be proud to shout to the world that I am your mother. I am thankful and blessed to be your mom. I will forever thank God for the wonderful miracle He's bestowed upon us...you! I am indeed very happy that I am your mother! I love you baby boy!

Love,
Mom

(written May 8, 2011 - My Mother's Day sentiment)